This morning

I went to have a blood test... I'd been putting it off for more than two weeks as it involves me missing work in the morning... So anyways I go this morning and it took nearly no time at all, which is a giant surprise since it's dealing with the NHS. The nice nurse who was taking my blood was asking me my date of birth to confirm that I was whom the slip of paper I had from my GP said... She noted that my birthday was next week and that I was to be 28. She remarked that I was still so young but that 28 was an age where you were nearly a full fledged adult... I laughed and agreed. She then asked me if I had a husband, to which I of course replied no. What happened next was the part that got me thinking... She asked why not? At this point in what I can only say was an effort not to shock the poor woman, I said no no I've a career. To which she responded... 'but you are only young once and you can't go back and time and find a husband before you're too old'.... Now why I was unable to simply state the truth in that I'll never have a husband nor particularly want one is what troubles me... I am probably the least rainbow flag ra ra gay person around... but just why I was unable to express myself freely and tell her that it wasn't that my career that was keeping me from having a husband, was pretty sad. I'm thinking that I'm part of the problem that surrounds the gay community... If, in an effort to avoid this woman's shock or disapproval I chose not to speak the truth then what does that say about me? That I'm ashamed of who I am?

This is not the first time that this has happened... but I guess having now written this all down I can perhaps start processing the issues that put me in these situations in the first place....

Heavy stuff yea yea, but on a lighter one... this will be my last blog for a while now as I'll be away to Barcelona with Kaffin who arrives tomorrow!

Perhaps I'll attempt to procure a guest blogger... Any takers?

Tee hee

my flat is on the internet... (no. 13)

thanks to a certain co-worker... I spent the night watching this series... it's like crack I can't stop watching it... I've only 5 or 6 more discs to watch... perhaps may even have to interrupt paradise hotel viewing to watch... oh yea, I was talking to miss woo on the phone last night who also confessed to watching it on Monday night, and loving it! Ha we're in it together!

Only 3 more sleeps until my seestor arrives!

Happy happy, joy, joy!

dales and birthdays

I returned from up north on Sunday evening... it was a great relaxing weekend. My poor belly didn't know what hit it, never in my life have I consumed so much food! I'm still not quite right... But fun was had by all... and on the train on the way home we were in the same carriage as this actor that you might know from such films as snatch and other English gangster films... Much shorter in person... it's always the way isn't it?

JoJo's b'day dinner was last night... quite the civilized event. Was nice to see all her peeps in one place! Woo and I got her this lovely leather bound notebook with which we hope she will fill with her fancy stories and such! She's 25 now! My god, in a week I'll be 28!!!!!!!! *runs and hides*

I accidentally ended up watching the first episode of this horrific American program that they were showing on channel 5 called paradise hotel. Never in my life have I ever seen anything more horrific... but yet like the scene of an acciendent I couldn't help but watch it! Today I feel shame and regret. *runs off to set VCR for Wednesday night's episode*

However if you missed the first run of the series you simply must watch the program called 'shameless' on channel 4 it's brilliant!